MY DREAM

I met my now husband when I a small girl and then I fell in love with his curly hair and his smile. He was my dream, we went to church together, our family's where friends. I was so in love with him that my heart hurt when I didn't see him.  I had friends and cousins my age as well and of course we went to the same church and they had their eyes on him too.  I just knew that one day I would get him for my very own.  I couldn't wait until Sunday rolled around I knew I would see my dream all day. I would go home from church with him     and his family and back again that night. I hated when the day ended then I would have to end my day and part ways until I could see him again the next week. It was so long and all I could think about was my dream and how I would love to be his wife one day.  I thought how could I attract him, oh how could I get him to notice me? I know he was my friend and liked me but I wasn't to sure if he liked me the way I liked him. I was so scared to ask. There were other boys in the church so I tried to use them to make him jealous and that didn't even work.  Oh how was I going to get him for my very own.....as time went on we remained friends and grew into young adults. I knew I had to do something or I was going to lose him for sure.  My dad took sick with cancer so I had to stay 2 counties away from my dream met a guy and we became good friends..my heart was hurting for my dream so the guy was some comfort. We talked about how I felt about my dream and that I missed him and he was great at listening to me..A few months went by and I never seen my dream so my heart still loved him but it was getting somewhat easier to be away from him. My guy friend started becoming more than friends to something serious, my dad came home from the hospital so I went back home and to find out that my dream was marrying my first cousin, I was so very angry and hurt. I hated myself for not telling him how I felt and I cried what seemed like for weeks. I ended up marrying my guy friend just to get over my dream. I had a beautiful daughter from my now husband and our marriage became rocky very quick, it last only 6 years. I divorced and moved to North Carolina with my sister and still was thinking about my dream and downing myself for not standing up for what I wanted then. I remarried and I stayed there for 17 years and have a son.  We are now divorced and I moved back to Kentucky to take care of my very sick mom.  I gave up on men, there was noone like my dream so I stop trying to find it. 
I was on a dating website and guess who I found...MY DREAM we met up talked, started dating and now we have been married 2 months and I could never be happier.  I love him So much.